Day 3 . empty

felt the drastic change when the decision is made,

somebody felt happy & somebody stunned,

everything need to plan again and this time around it just me who have to face the truth,

the truth of being lone ranger who have yet see the light ahead,

but

deep inside my heart i felt its a correct way,

now i have to seek for the light to lead me again,

or i will make the fire and make my path.

i still cant accept it..

its really a thunderstorm in my mind when i got fact that it was confirmed and W had surrendered willingly to F. I known W for sometime, and the way i know it, W will not give it out unless W willing to. I call up, and W confirmed it,and here comes the storm...

during my long journey home i try to meditate and it doesn't work, my mind will automatic thought of W and the fact that F will eventually win this war. There is time I had a low esteem period, F got everything that i dun have. More personal time,bigger income,no family strings that hold F back and F's physicals. this sounds totally not like me.. i normally won't care about those but not this time..i never faced a competition like this before because i never had one before..

well, i do review myself that do i really afford to lose it one day or as i proposed to W that we are great pal? my mind pops up lot of uncertainty, i really need a companion.A companion that my family will give their blessing..i had live a long single life, and after half a year back to square one.

i really do not hope the prophecy of a fortune teller become true, that i will big had time to get my soul mate or won't get one. And leads to my single old age and commit suicide one day because i have not achieved anything.

on the other hand, i know i should do this which i had foreseen this , it just too many potential competition and great opportunity for one to be seduced and attracted by others.

argh!!!! i dun wish to say i had lose my time for this, and i do hope for the best.

need to pack up myself and move on.

to be cont.

temp. jocky service

its funny story i think i should put it down

as usual, working days during lunch time i head towards my car at the carparking space to pick up my car to go for meeting,

then this malay/indon guy rush to me as usual to collect parking ticket,

but this time around he come with troubled face.

then i asked : what happen?

he said : nak mintak tolong jap boss..

i replied: mintak tolong ?

he said : boleh tolong parking kereta? ade sebuah kereta letak kat tengah jalan dan dah cabut pergi meeting...

i was like .. wat??

then i offer to help him, he brought to another corner.. and i was wonder wat kinda car that could be left like that and pass car key to total stranger...

i was surprise that this car is the one i have to drive...

honda accord 2.4

then i just get in the car try the handle, start the engine and starting to packing the car,

, its rather easy to handle. will get one in future.. :P

reverse parking, done.

then suddenly my colleagues appears..

they start giving this surprise impression.. wa wa wa...

bruce change car dy!!! wa wa wa...

how much u buy etc...

i tak sempat wanna explain then i throw the key back to the guard , keep saying not mine la not mine le!! lolx... its so hilarious...

they said i should have drive it take few ride b4 return it...

hahaha

never thought of that..

i'm a good boy ...

thank you thank you..

高兴~~

终于感觉到在学新东西了，

终于感觉到害怕但又兴奋，

终于感觉有些改变了，

终于知道现在等待什么了，

我要再努力，

我要解决困难，

我要再更加把劲，

我要把它做的非常好。

耶！！

my cousin come n visit me in kuantan during hari raya~

let me introduce to everybody this is my cousin, jun jun~

playing seawater in kuantan..

its not a sunny day though, nice weather to hang out at seaside

we brought him to Pekan royal polo club

take a photo shot in front of the sultan's palace

爱只在正确的时间

爱只在正确的时间


一个女人突然决绝的跟相爱五年的男友分了手，闪电般嫁了他人。她说她要结婚她实在等不起了，而他虽然爱她，却根本没有一点这方面的意思。过了几年，男人也结婚了。那个新娘其实未必比她出色多少，或者这一次他的爱也没有多么深，只不过她出现的时机实在太好，刚刚好在他萌生倦意想安定下来的时候。于是，不需要什么更好的理由了，她来得正是时候，那么，就是她了。

其实我们寻寻觅觅了那么久，遍尝每一次爱情的甜蜜与艰辛，而最后选择的爱人，不过就是在我们心意动时，经过身边的那一个。什么青梅竹马，什么心有灵犀，什么一见钟情，都不过是些锦上添花的借口，时间才是冥冥中一切的主宰。

回首往事的时候，想起那些如流星般划过生命的爱情，我们常常会把彼此的错过归咎为缘分。其实说到底，缘分是那么虚幻抽象的一个概念，真正影响我们的，往往就是那一时三刻相遇与相爱的时机。

男女之间的交往，充满了犹疑忐忑的不确定与欲言又止的矜持，一个小小的变数，就可以完全改变选择的方向。如果你出现的早一点，也许他就不会和另一个人十指紧扣；又或者相遇的再晚一点，晚到两个人在各自的爱情经历中慢慢学会了包容和体谅，善待和妥协，也许走到一起的时候，就不会那么轻易的放弃，任性的转身，放走了爱情。

在你最美丽的时候，你遇见了谁？
在你深爱一个人的时候，他又陪在谁身边？
在你心灵最脆弱的时候，又是谁在与你同行？
爱情到底给了你多少时间，去相遇和分离，去选择和后悔？

如果爱一个人而无法在一起；相爱却无法在适当的时间相遇；如果你爱了，却爱不对时间，除了珍藏那一滴心底的泪，无言的走远，你又能有什么选择？时间的荒野，没有早一步也没有晚一步，于千万人之中，去邂逅自己的爱人，那是太难得的缘分，更多的时候，我们只是在彼此不断的错过，错过了杨花飘飞的春，又错过了枫叶瑟索的秋，直到漫天白雪，年华不再，在一次次的心酸感叹之后，才能终于了解——即使真挚，即使亲密，即使两个人都已是心有戚戚，我们的爱，依然需要时间来成全和考验。

这世界有着太多这样那样的限制与隐秘的禁忌，又有太多难以预测的变故和身不由己的离离合合.一个转身，也许就已经一辈子错过。 多年以后，才会参透所有的争取和努力，都抵不过命运开的一个玩笑。

上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼，所有的结局，就都已经完全改变。

自作多情

不管怎么样，

只要我知道能再见到他已经是件高兴的事了。

是时候再动身回家去了。

耶~~